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somehow it's not a strong feeling of doom though
just a frustration
reading the txtbk and trying out the tutorials have helped a little
but i still feel a little lost
after this the rest of the papers are not that bad...
though there is still organic but then i learnt more in those lectures than from instru...
rawrrrrr irritated a little
well should finish up whatever i can and go to sleep
What three items would you place in a time capsule to help future generations understand you? Submitted By |
my ipod
a softball
lj account and password ahahhahahha
Me: But i need to at least have an impression of what was taught so i don't hand in a blank script!
Bro: but it's not going to help
Me: oh stop saying the things that are in my heart!!! (but i don't want to accept)
my 2 brothers are watching Up! downstairs. dad bought the bluray disk from US. rahhhhhh so distracting
my bro and i are into Moscato wine now.
and we're gonna get GH5 and Band Hero :) more games for parties!
if i actually can get ppl to travel to my home. haha it's so far for so many ppl!
ok ok sampling! i'll conquer you *game face*
just a tightening of the chest
anguished feeling
just rarrwrr days
hopefully softballing a little 2mr will help me let go of the tension i'm feeling in myself
or maybe i can grapple hug someone XD (ok i'll just hug my teddy bear, or maybe i'll punch it. hmmmm)
a bit crazy maybe? can't help it when i feel this way though.
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i hate when ppl ask me to do something last minute.
meanwhile! i made spring minestrone from book 4 of the Jamie Oliver book for my granny's birthday potluck :) quite successful, considering i overdid the portions, it will got eaten up pretty well.
tastes awesome with fresh bread
would be even better if i had time to garlic butter them haha but oh well
AND! my cousins and i had this discussion that we should go club together in dec. and my aunt was like 'go go go! it's ok one! just let us know' lol
I am very very amused
and there are plans to get one of the cousins to teach us some hip hop to perform for the family? wtf not that it doesn't sound fun but then perform? learn for fun can le laaaaa
sighhhh i really need to get through instrumental analysis. it SUCKS! and i have lab assessment on wed! shucks... siannnnnn
i want to pitch tooo cause i feel the need to perform in chiang mai properly. i mean... i like being good at softball! (i wish that feeling would translate to my studies a little more haha) but somehow the feeling is not right and i feel wrong when i'm pitching. it hasn't felt this wrong in a long while.
aiya anyway i am ok i guess. just frustrated with random things.
life is still ok on the whole!
I was panting all the way and so tired. thank goodness it was just one last short game!
haha shi hui got mvp siah!!! awesome 2
meanwhile i need to fix the sciclub website
2. i need to get ready halloween decoration
3. study like shit!!!
couldn't pitch for some reason, don't know why ...
but played a decent 3rd base i guess? :) and batting was good!
took photos and had a lot of fun with the girls. sigh i think i'm gonna miss them soooo much when i leave.
I hope we really get enough ppl for chiang mai now. last bit of fun before real life sets in... i need to apply for work so bad...
sighhhhh
rahhhhh should get to studying forensic
anyway yesterday was really fun
softball was kind of a downer cause of the rain
well dance was fun but the beat's really fast this time! the new song's p diddy's come to me
fadz's place was good. hanging out is always good :)
food and ugly doll lol
and !!! Dexter Season 4!!! rocks! :P
so excited!
As much as i hope not to have to give up softball for it, i'm sorta mentally prepared to do so. I just love trying new things.
Maybe i'm reading too much into things but the first crossroads between softball and science club appears as the choice of sitting with who for teamNUS dinner. maybe i just read too much into things. but it's just that way for me.
life is good meanwhile. just excited excited!
meanwhile my website skills leave much to be desired! I wish i payed attention to sec sch computer class now! SX
wed wake up early to get to yumin pri
wed night training
thu night ifg canoe polo which ended at 11.15pm! rahhhh
tonight have forensic science lab :) but i hope my bro doesn't go "let's go late night bowling" again.
2mr i have to be in sch for science club spring cleaning
2mr night birthday party that i'm not sure whether want to go or not
sun visiting granny i think
this is for this week
hey anyone want to join my publicity com?
not designing things, more of vetting other com's work
unless you want to help me be web master/mistress of the science club website
have to include everything there is to know about science fac
so i actually want an outside opinion, someone who hasn't been to camps or hanged around for sch activities.
then i can know what are the loopholes in information
meanwhile in my head:
1. SOP for publicity in future(ground work for future ppls)
2. lesson outline for photoshop class for beginners
3. website plan, at least layout, even if i have no idea how to do what i'm thinking of!
4. maintenence of notice board
5. training for oct compeition
6. better study for my tests
monday is first mc meeting with everyone. so excited!
why am i so excited? haha I really don't know!
i've been feeling out of control for a while now.
and time is slipping away.
rawrrrrr
time to step back into me
song that is earworm when walking around. nevermind that i don't even understand the language. haha
it's catchy.
Super Junior - Sorry Sorry
every person in there is a member of the group btw. what a large group.
I still enjoy singing better at the karaoke anyway :)
ohhh dance class is painful cause of the stretch! dance instructor forces you to stretch all the way to gain flexibility. I should practice the steps cause i'm so poor at dancing haha
finally dnd! so fun :) though i got home really really late. and heels are sooo painful. pretty photos :)
minimal injury
no horrible tans
decent game play
:) i'm really glad the team was formed. it'll take time but i see it is growing bit by bit.
and and and we might top the lower division for the league cause of a points tie with another team! haha so amusing. it's really fun to be the black horse running at the back. no pressure. this is the most fun softball i have ever played in the longest time. I love my team :D
2. I tried out for NUS Resonance! so cool. acapella appreciation up ten folds from the 2nd round experience! I think i screwed up the first song 'Longer' though. the second song was fun! 'You Gotta Be' groovy song!
well results will be out end of the week. don't think i'll get through cause competition is stiff! I had fun though.
and from the auditions! I am an alto! apparently the lowest of the female parts. and omg sopranos have the sweetest sounding voice. it's kind of creepy!
3. dnd on sat! and first dance class on sat! looking forward to it.
and tonight i'll head to nusjamfest. if only for the free drinks XD
cooked something to eat
put up notice that i'm selling txtbks
met friend at her hall room
had a can of beer before training
had training
am home on the net
sleep
a day passes pretty fast eh
haha 1.5h of dancing after training on sat though sounds crazy but i think can la! haha
starts next sat! so exciting!
meanwhile i'm starting to take the audition for voices more and more seriously. so nervous hhaha
meanwhile must start studying! i don't want to die for organic synthesis! rahhhhh
was kind of fun.
met more funky ppl
haha now jioed more ppl to join in hip hop class too!
might try out muay thai with og mate hui ling :)
and like ahhhh how come always got pretty/handsome ppl in my og one. but nice la :P eye candies! wan shui!
and once again the house i am in get best house! omg! haha so funky :)
green is a good color to be this year! both also green house!
i feel tried now. ppl interaction sucks my energy a little
school starts! i should study more hor haha
tue and wed no class! heeee
now just settle lab and wait for tutorials
cause like i watched a bit of it
it was kind of cool but finishing watching it would like mean i wouldn't go to sleep
anyway the part i saw, the 2 old men were seated on top of a pyramid
and mel gibson played character asked jack nickelson character 2 qns:
Did you find joy?
Did you bring joy to others?
this was supposedly the 2 questions you'd be asked before being decided if you'd go into Egyptian heaven.
- Mood:
calm
we lost by 1 run.
it's been a long time since i've been struck by the heart wrenching feeling of loss.
it just came the moment the run came in and the umpire called game and time end.
i just... felt the pang in me.
in retrospect it really wasn't my fault. i just did my part and the rest happened. ORA played their hardest and so did we.
we did good today. but emotionally i just couldn't help but take on the blame again.
was it instinctual? i couldn't help it, tears were coming and i just held them back, thinking it's no point.
it's not a good habit right. to take on the blame for things.
is it a sense of responsibility? i don't know.
i just felt kns.
i'm ok now. logic tells me i played well too.
stopped balls as right field. made a good hit. ah well i should keep that instinctual blame eating thing in check.
i am such a ridiculous person.
